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In which I kinda have my hands full. BUT!
*starts pounding out entry fast so she doesn't miss her bus to work*
The year has been rough.
In the span of a few short months—not even a whole half of a year—I've managed to land a few difficulties in my life. It began with that ugly breakup between me and my second ex, over the thing that's sent me to the hospital three times in three months. Life as a PTSD survivor has not been a picnic. To top it off, I now have to deal with little blanks in my memory off and on—those would be what I call the brainzaps. I have oddly-timed panic attacks now.
I have developed a quaking fear of entering an elevator (or any small space) that contains more than two men.
I've developed an unreasoning terror of the palms of people's hands.
I've begun hearing things, seeing things, that aren't quite there.
I've lost the motivation to do many things that I find enjoyable most of the time.
The thought of physical intimacy, even in a written love scene, gives me cold chills.
So it's not unusual that I've also developed a wild pattern of mood swings that go from feeling AWESOME about EVERYTHING, to landing head first into deep, black depression. It's been kind of a rough time of it, that's for certain. Then again, I've been through a lot.
I really count myself lucky to be alive today. For more than one reason.
The biggest one: there are things I like, and people I like. If I stop to count them, I feel better about myself and life.
That is why I'm going to do the "100 Things" challenge.
I'm going to blog about 100 things I like. Ideas, events, food (NO ONE here is surprised at food's inclusion on this list), activities, music—if I like it, anything's fair game.
I'm going to take time out of my day to do this, because for every thing that I like…there's a reason to live.
I'll begin when something I've wanted for a long time arrives in the mail. ETA: Two Weeks. </Money Pit Reference>
I hope you'll join me for this project. One of the things I like is to talk, and it's more fun when there's someone out there listening.
Now if you'll excuse me—I'm…kinda sorta supposed to be at work. XD
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Good luck on the 100 things meme! Hope you can tackle that bugger! (I still have no clue what I'm going to do yet... maybe I should just present Mont with some pitches and see which one she sniffs the most?)
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I've been futzing around with the idea of taking this one on ever since you brought it up. At first I figured, “Well, what's the damn point?” And THAT was where I realized I've got a serious problem here. Then I realized that not only could this be fun, it very well could help my condition (more so than the therapy I can't afford. Y U NO TAKE MAH INSURANCE, PEOPLE?)
The genius of making my topic «Things I Like» is in what it makes me do: thinking about things I like.
(Yes this is shaped like itself.)
Thinking about things I like makes me feel good; and I enjoy talking about things I like. I'm going to limit myself to things I already have or have coming in for the list—otherwise this would just be «Things I Want,» and that isn't as uplifting.
...I'm going to sound like a geek on the weirdest things. XD
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