Gr. Need smut muses.

I’ve been trying to get something done today. I know, it’s early yet. But there’s just gotta be something I can do, right? Right. I can write this thing I’ve been wanting to write…

At least, in theory.

The fact is, for a while now, I’ve been wanting to write smut. But I’ve got this whole block thing going on. I don’t mean a security block – if my computer was getting blocked, that would be a problem. I’m talking about a smut-writing block.

I know what you’re thinking: "…Huh?"

I speak the truth. For whatever reason, I can’t seem to work up the nerve to write smut. I have so many ideas that could go in that direction, but I can’t get past the whole thing in my head that’s always getting into the works and saying "omg she’s writing porn make her stop pls thx."

Gotta be a way around this. Right?

This is the part where I ask anybody with tips on this front. So… ::goes chibi and asks for tips::

Go me. I rock.

I managed to find something to do: I did my hair. That ate about four hours that I didn’t know how to otherwise spend in a grounded setting. (Again, just as soon as I’ve found myself a job, I’m getting the fluck out of this place) So after I took care of what a walk through humid settings had turned into a birds’ nest, I managed to find something else to do: read the transcripts of the RP’s that I was in these few days.

Yes, I’m finally working on a way to get around my whole aversion to the whole thing. Even if my nerves never give me a real break from it, I will get the hang of it, and I will become A GOD, you know?

^^;; OK, now that I’m done with the ego trip…

While we were in the middle of this, I managed to somehow open the possibility for one of the crackiest, most evil slash pairings in quite possibly the history of slash. I hadn’t really realized that I’d left that possibility out in the open until long after I’d done it—in other words, until after I’d read my end of the transcripts. But then, it was like "homigawdhoshit, that could WORK." But I tried not to think about it, because my brain was already in overload mode with the massive amounts of writing that I already still have left to do, and it was super-cracky to begin with. So I put it back in to the back of my mind, didn’t give it much attention:

That is, until running into <ljuser>jayaballard</ljuser> on campus.

She was also in the RP in question, and noticed the possibility that I’d left hanging out there, and pointed it out to me, asking if I’d seen it. My reaction? Oh, it went something like this: ::smirks::

HER reaction went something like this: O_O!!

Priceless. I managed to come up with something that she considered relatively creepy…and that’s damned hard to do, you know?

I’m probably going to get darned to heck for about fifteen minutes before the end of next week…but I don’t care. Just as long as my muses don’t decide to make me write this, then I’ll be fine…unless that’s their plan for when I get done with the YxZ and VxC.