I hear you. Coming to terms with not being 100% heterosexual/100% cisgender is beyond awkward and a gaslighting nightmare; one that lasts far too many years. (I've got a friend who is somewhere between ace and biromantic but has struggled with coming to terms with where she stands because of a lot of crap that went on in her adolescence so she's never pursued a romantic relationship and she still feels conflicted about whether she should go on a dating website or if she legit wants someone. Another friend who veers more towards liking the ladies has a similar problem; it's not clear cut and because of that it makes it that much harder to go forward. I'm lucky in that my radar is so broken and my personality so selfish that a relationship isn't something I'm after, but I do find it difficult not being naturally attracted to men and finding androgyny/femininity attractive. Thank goodness for Japanese animanga/video games.)
On the subject of gender, one thing I noticed during the study I was involved in was so many of the pariticipants struggling to feel comfortable in their own gender and now there's that theory that the autistic brain is a more 'male brain'. I'd somewhat agree with that in my case but then I'm also a giant fujo/seiyuu fangirl so yeah. (I am a gemini though so maybe one twin is a dude, the other a gal, idk.)
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Date: 2019-06-25 04:06 pm (UTC)On the subject of gender, one thing I noticed during the study I was involved in was so many of the pariticipants struggling to feel comfortable in their own gender and now there's that theory that the autistic brain is a more 'male brain'. I'd somewhat agree with that in my case but then I'm also a giant fujo/seiyuu fangirl so yeah. (I am a gemini though so maybe one twin is a dude, the other a gal, idk.)