railenthe | Something is happening...

Around the beginning of the month, I received my diagnosis of interstitial cystitis: a rarer condition that is a part of what they call the 'painful bladder syndromes,' which is Exactly What It Says On The Tin--I get a level of pain that is so high that I literally cannot function in daily life. Right after we confirmed that yes I am a zebra three times over, we started treatment for it. Basically, they shoot heparin, alkaline water (it's basically liquid baking soda), and a heckin LOT of lidocaine directly into the bladder.

It's amost a month of biweekly treatments, and I'm gonna admit to y'all right now...I'm starting to feel like myself again.

I hadn't realized just how much of my lack of energy and overall general misery was just because of this specific condition. Like seriously, you know what I just did?

I sat down and wrote a page.

I wrote a page, y''all! I wrote an actual paage!

IDK if anyone understands what I'm trying to convey here. I have been trying to do literallly anything, and it's been so hard to actually pull that off. Between pain anad brain (not too far past this time last year, I was in the looney bin again for my bipolar deciding to just basically destroy me to death) I haven't been able to do anything, go anywhere, just...

I'm not getting my point across, I don't think. But...something is happening.

Something good.