Remind me I'm not supposed to talk sometimes.

[railenthe]

Yesterday I blew up at two very good friends for no good reason, came very close to quitting writing for good, came even closer to getting drunk just to feel stupid and happy—I don't miss the alcohol but I miss feeling happy (and yes, a little stupid), and then came close to recommitting myself.

I honestly wanted to destroy something. Preferably something with a consciousness so it could see what was happening to it.

To avoid a raking over the coals (which didn't happen, as my friends are neither my family nor my dick of an ex) I start apologizing, one of which produces the...absolute stupidest mental image. It winds up becoming the first thing I've written in three weeks.

So even though things worked out half decent? I'm keeping my damn mouth shut.

I've had a med adjustment, I've got an empty hormone rod in one arm making me off in general, I've lost all knowledge of how being social works outside the series of tubes internet, and I'm having a string of recurring nightmares about friends leaving me for dead. Also my headache set up camp again and that always sours my mood.

So today, I keep quiet. And sleep.

When I wake up next, I won't be so bitchy.

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Comments

[toffeethesnob.livejournal.com]

*dusts self off and puts rake back in the inventory* Well I can't say I appreciated it at any rate but at least that's out of the way and done with.

I'm sorry to hear that you've been feeling rather terrible lately (though I'd advise directing your anger towards fictional redshirts rather than living things in the future as they tend to lake rakes) and I hope you recover soon, though it's good to know that you've at least been able to get back to writing again. With any luck there'll be more of the writing and less of the unpleasantness in the future (it certainly would be preferable from my perspective).

But anyway, no worries, we're cool.


(I can't say if I'd recommend this anime or not... it's an otome that is taking itself WAY too seriously but I can't help finding it hilarious as a result... and yes I only checked it out because Princess Uke Chan is in there, I freely admit I watch anime purely for certain seiyuu these days. Though I'm kind of surprised that he's playing one of the most seme like characters in there... especially since the last time I heard him with the guy who's playing his BFF, Princess Uke Chan was voicing an actual GIRL...how's that for playing against type!?)

ETA: Lack rakes not LAKE rakes... *facepalm* How do you even lake a rake anyway?

*hug and brofist*

[railenthe.livejournal.com]

IN ORDER!

It's a sunglasses inside in the dark sort of day. This one came with an olfactory hallucination. "Hey do you smell burning garbage OW MY HEAD."

I know it's out of my system because I've got this boot to the head going on right now.

o.o Nomura would criticise the lack of belts! It all depends on mood I reckon.

Lake rakes? I saw the Lady of the Lake throwing a rake at someone. (Lakescalibur?)

[toffeethesnob.livejournal.com]

Urgh...that sucks. Usually when I smell burning rubbish it means I've screwed up whatever it was I was cooking... last night I managed to char sausages so they were underdone on one side and black on the other... Mmm...

Indeed, not enough belts by half! Though when I saw them in those outfits I assumed those were their work costumes at first because they looked so damn ridiculous but NO, their work outfits are these overly colorful frilly waiter things - they just wear Houdini's cast offs as CASUAL WEAR.

Also this seems to be the antagonist...

FEAR HIS SHINY TORCHINESS!!!

I wonder if this was the Spamalot version of Lady of the Lake then... she'd sure as hell throw a rake - hell, she'd use the rake to try and pull the other cast members offstage so she'd have it all to herself!

[railenthe.livejournal.com]

I KNOW RIGHT? and I do mean burnt garbage, like someone was cooking the day's rubbish.

...OUR ANTAGONIST ISN'T A MORIKAWA IS HE?

That looks like a combination of a host outfit and a cab driver. XD

LAKE RAKES! IT'S HOW YOU GIVE THE KILLER BUNNY HIS FOOD.

[toffeethesnob.livejournal.com]

Which now has me wondering what particular brand of ingredients were in this rubbish... diapers? Things that have been in the fridge 5 years? Rotten eggs?Gutter residue?

NOPE. (IF ONLY!) ACTUALLY IT'S THE OPPOSITE: It's Kouki Miyata, a very soft young sounding voice actor who has played quite a few ukes in his time but I quite like his evil voices, I must say...

"Where can I drive you to today, milady? Ecstasy or heaven?"
(They haven't got THAT cheesy yet but it's only episode 3...)

IT'S ALWAYS A NIGHTMARE WHEN THE KILLER BUNNY HAS NOODLES - THEY ALWAYS GET STUCK TO THE RAKE SO EVENTUALLY YOU HAVE TO DROP IT TO PREVENT PULLING BACK A NOT QUITE SATIATED RABBIT.

[railenthe.livejournal.com]

Add barbeque sauce and you have it. ...this might be why I hate BBQ usually

OHO? That's pretty campy. This kid needs an eye kept on him!

OH GEEZ. SIR FALAFEL LOST AN ARM THAT WAY. THE FETTUCINI WAS DIVINE HOWEVER.

[glacialphoenix]

It's fine. Not the best thing to happen to me any time of the year, but like I said I'm not mad and I'm not going to rake you over the coals when you were clearly not feeling okay. I hope yaou feel better by the time you see this comment.

I wrote this on Theo so you know... If I missed any typos I made you know why I'm saying weird stuff.